Letter to friend
I was meaning to e-mail you. I'm glad you finally did, because I probably would of kept on avoiding it - It's not that I don't know now what to say to you. I don't really have everything set in stone. I was going to start to letter asking if you were still in Japan and if you had came back to LA yet? But you already answered that question with the letter. Are you still in the same apartment that you were in - the last one I saw? Are people treating you nicely, because if not I'll tell them whats up. I have a part-time job and paying off my car, but a pre-paid cell-phone I think would be a good option for me. What are you going to be for Halloween? I got invited to 2 parties - so I'll be partying it up and since I didn't get on the hockey team why not. I've been running once a week. I'm trying to help my cousin out by getting in shape so I run a mile - or a mile in half was Tuesday. Yeah it was suppose to snow today - Wednesday, but it just mainly rained. I've been running by myself or either going to the gym to work-out. It's kind of ironic that I have a membership to a gym, but don't have a cellphone. Last time I ran was Sunday and it was through town and it was 4 miles. Were you here when Bemidji was a one-way, because now downtown is a one-way and has a sidewalk by the lakefront - like a 2-mile stretch cross. Well there's a marathon I kind of want to run - it's 26.3 miles - it's the grandma's marathon. I kind of want to run that plus I kind of want for once - wash board abs. Homecoming was last weekend and I went to the football game on Sat. at 10:00 - going to the tailgate party and then ending at 4:30. I don't really like football, but I went with my dad so it was alright. He explained some things, but there were moments when I was like Uuuugh! You know. Then later we went to the exhibition game - mens hockey game - with my little sister Kelso and my dad. I love hockey games and it was cool, because it was only there 2nd time on ice as an "official team" except the whole eight players who weren't on the ice. The starters didn't play and they played the rookies and it was awesome! It gives the guys a fair chance, I think, personally #14 stood out; Tyler Scottfield. He's personally my favorite. You know how I get at hockey games - you were with me @ Bakersfield. i DON'T REALLY KNOW WHAT I'M GOING TO DO ABOUT SCHOOL - RIE. I had early child education my first year at the tech, which I had to go to anyways, since I kind of screwed myself up in highschool - with the grades. I'm glad the tech was there and I don't, but it was the only option and even though I took generals they were mainly generals you don't take for a four college. They were things like medical terminology, intro to anatomy and physiology, Family and Society and Dynamics (one class towards major), College Writing I (which I have to take over - got a D in - and only class for that matter, but it was my fault I didn't hand my crap in), CPR and First Aid (which I am Certified in), Ethics, Speech (which I don't think I deserved the grade I got - an A, but I did improve since my skill in that area is essentially non-existent) and a Developing reading class because my comprehending skills are off the wall (I had to take a test and I was one point off the first time, so they let me take it again and then I was like 5 points off). I took 24 credits in all my freshman year, because that's how many credits my advisor told me to take. I don't know... I just feel like maybe it was a waste of a year. But you would be so proud - I haven't been in an accident for over two years now would be three years in February - my favorite month and my insurance rates are suppose to be coming down in October - thank god - $200 a month is way too much. And I got a B average my first semester in college so I have a good student rate from my insurance company. A little gift from me to them to me again. I just added that last sentence to confuse you.
I did go to the Minnesota Wild game awhile back, BECAUSE THE NHL is back!!! Now you can watch games at the Staples Center - THE LA KINGS, Right? Are you living it up there - you went to Las Vegas - how was that? Was it for work or did you go with a couple of friends?
I don't think I can give up on the dream... I said to myself if I were to get cut in college hockey I'm done. I did, but I still feel compelled to keep on going. It's just a phase I'm going through. It kind of makes me sick - though letting go. I kind of wanted to prove my way in every conceiveable way, I was training towards the summer. I could of trained harder and I know that! No one would lift weights - my dad here and there whenever he was free, which was once in a blue moon. Then I skipped it all my freshmen year. I wanted to go to hockey camps last summer - there was one I saw in Canada, but it's not like I have ever lived it up, because of the whole job sitaution. I love my job now, but it's part-time and I don't use my time wisely so it's something that really keeps me busy right now and all that I can afford now until I can GROW UP! I do have to weed out things that are important and not, but it's very hard and when I accomplish this then will I know that I'm grown up. Maybe I do look the way I act - not my whole theory that I'm short.
It just really bugs me... the whole hockey thing. URR! I was even breaking a fever or something the day of try-outs and thats your only shoot. It was so horrible I couldn't pass, shoot, skate, or even scrimmage right. It was a mess. Mainly my efforts was shit on the ice, but at least everyone was nice out on the ice and no one really spoke the truth, but it would be nice if some people just were honest. In highschool I never had an honest coach. I feel like my high school hockey career wasn't there and I goofed that up too. I just didn't care though then. I knew who they were going to play and I wasn't even going to try. If I suck so bad, someone should of just came up to me and Just TELL ME, you know. Then this dilemma would of never happened. But I was thinking about this for a long time and I don't think I would of listened anyways vice versa. If someone told me to try and do my best I think I would of done the same as I did back in the day, because that's just who I am.
I was thinking of switching majors again to Pre-Med, since this year is MASS COMMUNICATIONS. I Think the only reason for the switch is that I really don't know where to go. I know I can overcome the whole blood thing. I've done heights and I'm scared of heights. I'm not scared of my own blood, except when I injured my foot - I didn't even look at that. I'm sorry, but if my mom just glanced at it and was going to faint then - NO THANK YOU. She's a oral surgeon for gosh sakes with also being a First Responder. I think I could be a doctor and it pays well - although your not suppose to think of the pay - you do. I was always the one to say that materalistic ways are not the way to go, people are greedy, I would work for hardly nothing, but now of having been dealt the cards I have - I want to hit it big. That is very greedy, but IT JUST SUCKS.
I dunno, but I think the main reason why this doubt (its almost as if I have the wedding jitters without the wedding and feeling because I wouldn't know what it felt like) is .... is that I was looking at St.Thomas and I've wanted to go to St.Thomas and they have a Pre-Med major there and not Mass Communications and there's no way my dad would accept this until I was really serious. He doesn't know that I want to go to the college mainly to try out for Divsion III, I knew from the get-go I wasn't Divison I materail from the start for Bemidji State. These girls even sleep hockey. They workout like 8 hours a day for hockey - how can you compete with that and do things too like school for one. I'm not that intelligent, school for me is getting to the point where I really had enough of it. I feel like I have already failed.
I dunno ... I dunno....
I need some help! Suggest anything. I'm not really feeling that good now. I'm like at the bottom of a hole and I don't know if I can get out. It's really hard! I was suppose to have things planned and be doing something with my life instead of continously staying in the same cycle day after day. FUCK!I DON"T KNOW.. but anyways on a happier note I think I'm going to be a cheerleader for Halloween.
I hope I could cheer you up in the whole homesickness instead of bring you more down with me, but I can't really think of a way. I haven't been away from home and that's also part of my problem too. Were like opposites - maybe we should switch! I just know your strong and you can get through anything. You'll find tons of friends because of your sparkling personality (Rie - you have that MINNESOTA niceness that is a part of you and always will be). One of these nights you'll just HAVE TO GET ALL wild. Just relax and have fun - don't worry about things so much. Sometimes you just have to laugh and at anything - many people think I'm weird because sometimes I just laugh randomly, but I REALLY don't care! No, don't be more like me - change that idea. No one should ever be me that is just SCARY! Right?
Give me the 411 and the Update. Tell me about work or your everday happenings you have. Tell me everything - we have so much lost time to make-up for. We kind of lost in touch. It will be almost a year since I haven't seen you At Thanksgiving this year! I might have to come and visit when I turn 21, because that was an ordeal we had last time. I'm so sorry. It was horrible.
Sarah
I did go to the Minnesota Wild game awhile back, BECAUSE THE NHL is back!!! Now you can watch games at the Staples Center - THE LA KINGS, Right? Are you living it up there - you went to Las Vegas - how was that? Was it for work or did you go with a couple of friends?
I don't think I can give up on the dream... I said to myself if I were to get cut in college hockey I'm done. I did, but I still feel compelled to keep on going. It's just a phase I'm going through. It kind of makes me sick - though letting go. I kind of wanted to prove my way in every conceiveable way, I was training towards the summer. I could of trained harder and I know that! No one would lift weights - my dad here and there whenever he was free, which was once in a blue moon. Then I skipped it all my freshmen year. I wanted to go to hockey camps last summer - there was one I saw in Canada, but it's not like I have ever lived it up, because of the whole job sitaution. I love my job now, but it's part-time and I don't use my time wisely so it's something that really keeps me busy right now and all that I can afford now until I can GROW UP! I do have to weed out things that are important and not, but it's very hard and when I accomplish this then will I know that I'm grown up. Maybe I do look the way I act - not my whole theory that I'm short.
It just really bugs me... the whole hockey thing. URR! I was even breaking a fever or something the day of try-outs and thats your only shoot. It was so horrible I couldn't pass, shoot, skate, or even scrimmage right. It was a mess. Mainly my efforts was shit on the ice, but at least everyone was nice out on the ice and no one really spoke the truth, but it would be nice if some people just were honest. In highschool I never had an honest coach. I feel like my high school hockey career wasn't there and I goofed that up too. I just didn't care though then. I knew who they were going to play and I wasn't even going to try. If I suck so bad, someone should of just came up to me and Just TELL ME, you know. Then this dilemma would of never happened. But I was thinking about this for a long time and I don't think I would of listened anyways vice versa. If someone told me to try and do my best I think I would of done the same as I did back in the day, because that's just who I am.
I was thinking of switching majors again to Pre-Med, since this year is MASS COMMUNICATIONS. I Think the only reason for the switch is that I really don't know where to go. I know I can overcome the whole blood thing. I've done heights and I'm scared of heights. I'm not scared of my own blood, except when I injured my foot - I didn't even look at that. I'm sorry, but if my mom just glanced at it and was going to faint then - NO THANK YOU. She's a oral surgeon for gosh sakes with also being a First Responder. I think I could be a doctor and it pays well - although your not suppose to think of the pay - you do. I was always the one to say that materalistic ways are not the way to go, people are greedy, I would work for hardly nothing, but now of having been dealt the cards I have - I want to hit it big. That is very greedy, but IT JUST SUCKS.
I dunno, but I think the main reason why this doubt (its almost as if I have the wedding jitters without the wedding and feeling because I wouldn't know what it felt like) is .... is that I was looking at St.Thomas and I've wanted to go to St.Thomas and they have a Pre-Med major there and not Mass Communications and there's no way my dad would accept this until I was really serious. He doesn't know that I want to go to the college mainly to try out for Divsion III, I knew from the get-go I wasn't Divison I materail from the start for Bemidji State. These girls even sleep hockey. They workout like 8 hours a day for hockey - how can you compete with that and do things too like school for one. I'm not that intelligent, school for me is getting to the point where I really had enough of it. I feel like I have already failed.
I dunno ... I dunno....
I need some help! Suggest anything. I'm not really feeling that good now. I'm like at the bottom of a hole and I don't know if I can get out. It's really hard! I was suppose to have things planned and be doing something with my life instead of continously staying in the same cycle day after day. FUCK!I DON"T KNOW.. but anyways on a happier note I think I'm going to be a cheerleader for Halloween.
I hope I could cheer you up in the whole homesickness instead of bring you more down with me, but I can't really think of a way. I haven't been away from home and that's also part of my problem too. Were like opposites - maybe we should switch! I just know your strong and you can get through anything. You'll find tons of friends because of your sparkling personality (Rie - you have that MINNESOTA niceness that is a part of you and always will be). One of these nights you'll just HAVE TO GET ALL wild. Just relax and have fun - don't worry about things so much. Sometimes you just have to laugh and at anything - many people think I'm weird because sometimes I just laugh randomly, but I REALLY don't care! No, don't be more like me - change that idea. No one should ever be me that is just SCARY! Right?
Give me the 411 and the Update. Tell me about work or your everday happenings you have. Tell me everything - we have so much lost time to make-up for. We kind of lost in touch. It will be almost a year since I haven't seen you At Thanksgiving this year! I might have to come and visit when I turn 21, because that was an ordeal we had last time. I'm so sorry. It was horrible.
Sarah
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